Sorry to hear you are sick. I do not pray anymore but hoping is the same, only without the guy floating in space that is our image. If god created us in his image and he was floating around somewhere why would he need a big hook nose, eyes, ears etc. Sounds like god was created in man's image to impress others that some people are smarter than others. So smart even dumb people believe what they say and pay them for it. Televangelists wearing all the fancy jewelry and suits sitting on throne like chairs selling cheap trinkets to those they control with lies. Atheists have websites that resemble the actions of "believers" because the atheists were molded by people that believe in religious fairytales. I choose to not be involved or claim to be anything pertaining to other's beliefs. You are just a chemical ravaged animal like anyone else. You are not chosen even if you kissed the butt of what you believe in. French kiss I mean.