LOVE.......

Thu May 21, 2009 11:38 pm » by **lainn**

bawdiemaude wrote:@ lainn

i will accept your 'i love you' as i assume implicit in it is 'i hate you'

and of course you are welcome to visit my studio any time- i think you will love it - its dirty raw chaotic but entirely liberating!!!!

and yes thanks for the inspiration - maybe ill name the piece of art after you.....!!

but do you have an alter ego? a dark side a character inside to balance the sweet aspect you present here? if you give me the name of that personality i will call the piece of art both names - for balance!!

alter ego?........yes.....and she's completely porno..i will whisper her name to you in a dream .....and if you don't receive as well as the samurai (MRoshi8)......i will give her to you upon walking through the doors of your chaotic studio....btw....this weekend ...yes?..our cuban friend remembers you quite well....you have stories don't ya Bmauade......for some reason i can't pm you back...i think i'm not the only one experiencing this.....
after reading what Hesop has sent it seems to have been a success....i'm a bit taken back by it all...@Hesop....i'm fine and there is no misinturputation....no worries

.....@Roshi8....anytime samurai....will be sure to seek out that film..and i'll wait until the end....

@Theeshee....it's stupid....but i saw that blue butterfly whilst attempting ....i was afraid to mention...it freaked me out a bit when my mind tried to rationalize if there was a connection....anyways....nevermind.

Thu May 21, 2009 11:47 pm » by **Theshee**

@ theshee how did you feel when you thought i was expressing an inability to love unconditionally- were you upset for me? or did you calmly send me love - it bothered you enough to respond....how has that affected how you view me?..what i mean is - we react and then react again- swinging as MUG explained.....searching for balance from one feeling to the antithesis...

I wasn't upset no, saddened yes and also yes I did calmly send you love. It hasn't effected how I view you in all honesty... I didn't get it, I couldn't read what you were saying, I didn't see the bigger picture you were writing probably because I have been in that saddened place and it took me back there so I seen THAT and reacted to it if that makes sense?!?!

@lainn WOW really!?!

Thu May 21, 2009 11:55 pm » by **Loveandlight**

if only everybody in the world had as much care and thought for others as you do lainn how good would this world be.
im am truly moved at your display of emotion to all of the people you have never met.

..and yes i could feel the love you expressed to us all....as slush said tho be carefull on the streets hun people can be more complex than they seem.
however in these times finding a soul such as your self is a rare but welcome sight ..
im sure by all of your previous posts that i have read that you are a very old soul with a lot of wisdom and you will be fine

if i had he resources to do what you have done today i would join you in your endeavor

passing all of that love and more right back at you lainn
love is the biggest gift of all
:hugging:

"the love you withold is the pain that you carry"

Thu May 21, 2009 11:59 pm » by **lainn**

@ Theeshee.....yes....i don't know if it has anything to do with anything though....it was a moments flash....a blue blur that i was aware of....but i didn't cast much attention on it...it did not come to my recollection until i read what Hesop sent.....i don't know....how could it be possible if we all were trying to send...i don't know...the more i start to wonder about it i become confused.

Fri May 22, 2009 12:01 am » by **Cornbread714**

loveandlight wrote:people can be more complex than they seem.

That's a very astute comment and very well put.

Fri May 22, 2009 4:14 am » by **Bawdiemaude**

lainn wrote:
bawdiemaude wrote:@ lainn

i will accept your 'i love you' as i assume implicit in it is 'i hate you'

and of course you are welcome to visit my studio any time- i think you will love it - its dirty raw chaotic but entirely liberating!!!!

and yes thanks for the inspiration - maybe ill name the piece of art after you.....!!

but do you have an alter ego? a dark side a character inside to balance the sweet aspect you present here? if you give me the name of that personality i will call the piece of art both names - for balance!!

alter ego?........yes.....and she's completely porno..i will whisper her name to you in a dream .....and if you don't receive as well as the samurai (MRoshi8)......i will give her to you upon walking through the doors of your chaotic studio....btw....this weekend ...yes?..our cuban friend remembers you quite well....you have stories don't ya Bmauade......for some reason i can't pm you back...i think i'm not the only one experiencing this.....

Lainn...yes this weekend- but this weekend is fast approaching- and how do we communicate?
She remembered me?? well that puts a fat smile on my face- i presume she remembers me because of my art- yes?

ok - ill wait for the alter ego name when we meet ....and this is a character MORE porno than lainn???!!!!!!!

try the pm again!

Fri May 22, 2009 4:22 am » by **Bawdiemaude**

theshee wrote:
@ theshee how did you feel when you thought i was expressing an inability to love unconditionally- were you upset for me? or did you calmly send me love - it bothered you enough to respond....how has that affected how you view me?..what i mean is - we react and then react again- swinging as MUG explained.....searching for balance from one feeling to the antithesis...

I wasn't upset no, saddened yes and also yes I did calmly send you love. It hasn't effected how I view you in all honesty... I didn't get it, I couldn't read what you were saying, I didn't see the bigger picture you were writing probably because I have been in that saddened place and it took me back there so I seen THAT and reacted to it if that makes sense?!?!!

well im glad there are no hard bones between us...and i am not in a bad place at all.....even though reading what i wrote seemed to conjure a not so happy memory for you.......

its just trying to hold both sides of the coin...too easy to skip into 'prettiness' without the resonance of beauty...i dont like fake....and i tend to react a bit toooooo passionately when i smell it!!

dont you find in any 'healing' and 'spiritual' worlds there are a lot of ppl that talk the talk and really its the same form as the 'good girl' but in disguise......as they havent dropped into their darkplaces to really know themselves enough to love anyone else and so the talk is fake.

anyway - i appreciate that you sent me love and i will send you some back esp to ease the memories....

peace sister....... :sunny: